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End of January, I weighed in at 143. I was back to square one. A year’s worth of progress from working out and dieting was flushed down the drain from the following half-year of sloth and gluttony.

December, I joined a CrossFit gym but it wasn’t until March that I could go in regularly. There were many weeks I couldn’t work out altogether and, when I did, the most I went was 3 days in a week.

In the past couple of months, I’ve also started reading books and blogs about the Paleo Diet and made adjustments to my eating habits around this. I haven’t been that strict about it. I still eat tofu and some cheese on occasion, even though the book says to minimize your intake of legumes and to eliminate dairy from your diet. I also finish the day with a small amount of dessert, usually a scoop of ice cream. I haven’t counted calories at all and I eat huge hearty meals of lean meat and vegetables. I stopped eating out and I’ve been cooking meals at home almost everyday.

I also started taking cortisol managing pills to suppress cravings for carb-loaded junk food. I read that having UARS leads to an overproduction of cortisol which is why it may be harder for me to lose weight. It could be a placebo but I find that I hardly have cravings at night on days I’ve taken this. Usually, I am dying for a party-sized bag of potato chips at 11pm.

I’m seeing a lot of progress. I’m feeling way better about what I’ve eaten. I stopped feeling guilty about what I eat. I stopped obsessing over numbers. This has been the easiest diet for me to follow and probably the most healthy and effective. It’s been so good for me and my fiancé. Even after I reach my body goals, I will probably stick with the Paleo lifestyle. This has also given me more motivation to cook at home and have something healthy and hot waiting for the fiancé when he comes home from work.

This past 2 weeks, I’ve been at a steady 134 lbs. I haven’t lost weight in the past two weeks but I can tell I’ve been losing fat since I’ve been measuring myself with a body tape. Also, I definitely feel better about myself when I’ve been working out regularly. I think the lack of exercise actually makes me see myself in a negative way, like some sloth-induced body dysmorphia.

In 30 minutes, I have to leave for another ass-breaking session of CrossFit. I’m dreading it but also looking forward to it.