Damn you beauty bloggers and your sudden wave of nail polish interests! Damn myself for jumping the bandwagon! I just wanted to fit in.
Compared to the matte version of Short & Sassy, I am much more in love with the matte version of Awakening. When I had first tried on Awakening, I was worried the color was too dark of a grey for my liking. I was hoping it would be more metallic. With the matte topcoat applied over it, it has the color and texture of slate and I absolutely adore it. I want to take a tiny little piece of chalk and draw stick figures on my nails.
China Glaze Awakening in its original luster.
For two of my classes, I have to read a poo-ton of Karl Marx. I want to shake my fist in the air and bellow, “KAAAARL MAAAAARXXXX!!!” By the end of each school day, I feel like I’ve been mercilessly bludgeoned in the head with various abridgments of Das Kapital.
I am so scared that I might not do so well this term because I feel like I have no idea what the hell the readings are trying to say. However, I’ve dealt with this through pretty much all of the past two terms and I still managed to maintain perfect grades, so maybe I am being irrational in my fears. Yet, at the same time, it makes sense to be scared because, like I said, I have no idea what the hell the readings are trying to say! If any of my grades fall short of an A, I might actually cry. Why does it matter so much to me now that I get As in everything when, up to a year ago, I didn’t care as long as I passed with minimal requirements?
I wonder if it’s because this is the first time I’m working hard to achieve to please myself and not my parents. I’m trying harder to think of myself as a separate person for whom I care and for whom I hold myself accountable. It’s hard to do because I’ve grown up learning to always be displeased and dissatisfied with myself. Criticisms were always easier to believe than praise and I believed the former were more valuable than the latter. Even now, it feels like I should lock on to every ego-crushing criticism with a firmer hold than sincere and self-nourishing compliments.
It’s not a bad thing to heed constructive criticism, of course, and understand one’s potential to improve upon one’s self, but maybe one should also balance it out by paying attention to one’s winning qualities, too.
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Yay, Alienman! Pleasing yourself is the best way to do it! I pray you'll ace this term again.
Very sexy nails! That Awakening is a MUST color! now I want it and I don't even paint my nails that often! LOL! Bella cushion!!
Don't worry, I know you'll pull through this with flying colors. WHY?! Cuz you have faith in yourself! And like you said you're doing this for YOU & not to pls anyone else! That is very important!
And I'm proud of you!!
I. LOVE. IT. Wantwantwant this polish! Hehe. And I'm sure you'll do fine =)
Ugh…Karl Marx….
That was utter hell for me seeing as it was part of a year long course on Classical Theory. It was a class I went to, and came out stoned…physically&mentally. Our prof pretty much hurled those theories on us, and didn't leave any room to digest before the tests!
Oh man…hope you come out strong
I…kinda did in the end…lol
ps this NOTD is making me want to run out and buy an Essie MAtte polish…except…its like 3:30 in the morning over here :T
craaaaaap – now i want a matte topcoat! matte awakening looks awesome
I've only given in to the nail polish craze a few times, but even now my nail polish collection is 3x what it was at the start of the year.
I'm sure you'll be fine with your classes – making the grades for yourself is much better than just passing the class to make your parents happy – you've got more drive do do it, so you do
where the hell have you been! missed your comments
my np stash has grown exponentially, too, and it's all RFC's fault! LET'S GET HER, GUYS!
Awwwww you girls are love in a jar <3
lol aw thanks
its cause I was lazy…and misread the comment box.
I thought you had to sign up for the D thingy…
didn't realize I could pick openID…
I'm claiming temporary blindness >_<
(seriously how the hell did I miss that box?!)
The grey definitely looks better matte! Btw my CG Atlantis polish chipped like crazy even with seche vite as topcoat….maybe its just me? Lasted 2 days max before my nails started looking all ghetto and chipped up
Really? Is that why nobody comments anymore? LOL
O wow, really? My medallion did not come off at all. It was harder to remove than acrylics!
The China Glaze is good!