Hey, hey, hey, readers!
You know what’s really cool?
When I first started out this blog, I felt more like I was writing in a private diary and so there wasn’t anybody to address.
Somehow, somewhere along the way, it’s picked up a few regulars and it’s a completely different feeling when I blog now. I actually have an audience to address and, somehow, that makes me glad I have this outlet.
I know I’ve said this before, but this wasn’t meant to be an official beauty blog. Beauty would only be a small portion of what many thoughts, ideas and experiences I’d share. I always felt like I had so much to say, so much to share, so much to learn through interaction on the web. I was going to write about current events, my life experiences, encounters with racial discrimination and feminism, and even record events and milestones in my relationship with the boyfriend. I would post my own cartoons and artworks, so I could bring more traffic to my Deviant Art page. Most importantly, this would be an outlet for me to practice writing, because I wanted to hone my skills to become a magazine writer.
However, I had lost motivation to do little more than explore my more materialistic and vain side – the side of me that has every right to be explored and enjoyed, of course, but that has also come to overlap all other perspectives and priorities in this journal.
I accredit this mostly to my seasonal affective disorder (s.a.d. aka winter depression). Throughout most of the past few months, I’ve wanted to think about almost nothing and do almost nothing. Even getting up to do the dishes felt like a tremendous chore and I felt like my mind would easily wander to the darkest and least happiest corners, where only unhappy thoughts lingered.
I couldn’t stand to perpetuate even an inkling of such unhappiness to anyone else, so makeup and an occasional anecdote was all I had to write about and all I wanted to think about.
Much to my surprise, however, having this sort of focus for this journal seems to have paid off and I’m getting at least 300 visits per day. I know, it’s no big number, but that’s 300 times bigger than what I had imagined this blog would be bringing in daily. On top of that, some of you actually think I’m funny! How about that now…
Where all this is leading to, you might wonder, and I’m not quite sure what it is I’m trying to get at. What is making me do all this talking today, though, is definitely gratefulness to you guys.
I really want to thank you guys for coming in here and encouraging me to keep blogging. I’ve posted so many cheesy mug shots here of my trying to look pretty and none of you had anything bad to say about that, so thank you. In spite of my limited makeup skills and experience, you’ve shown appreciation for my advancements thus far and have helped me to improve my skills since the day I started blogging my experience with cosmetics, so thank you. Sometimes, I didn’t talk about makeup at all and you guys still seem to find what I have to say mildly interesting, so thank you.
Throughout my struggle with winter depression, I could have completely hidden myself, as I have from friends and family. However, interaction with the acquaintances I’ve made online have actually kept me feeling somewhat alive, so thank you.
I really just wanted to say, thanks for reading 
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Hope your spirits will be lifted with the arrival of spring.
No Seyoung, thank YOU for blogging, for letting us catch a glimpse into your world, for making us smile and for making us awestruck. Thanks for the laughs! Keep on blogging!
Don’t let your dark side over take you… not sure if you remember what I wrote in ABB… but when I was MIA was because I did something more extreme to myself than just depressing thoughts. Unable to leave the hospital at my own free will and terrified of being a subject to be put in a special hospitalization to watch over me, was scary! Not to mention leaving my other half to wonder off wtf was going in my head. Anyways, I do hope you are slowly escaping that darkest side of your thoughts… I’m still working on mine, but hey online is a really good escape, for me anyways.
You’ve struck quiet an audience who care so continue to write, even if it’s not about beauty related things! As you can see, mine is all over the fucking place LOL
here’s to hoping spring and summer release you from your SAD. I know that’s why I can’t wait for winter to be over (I’ve got mild SAD as well). seeing updates on your blog has definitely made my days a little better.
only 9 more days until the official first day of spring!
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It doesn’t look anything like a sun but the amateurish drawing might make you giggle and take you off SAD even for a little while. Spring,please do hurry. Love your art by the way. I used to have a DeviantArt account but I deleted it ‘coz “artists” in my area were too snooty for my taste.
tee hee hee!! I think you are HIII larious!! xD
Don’t worry about the winter depression thing.. I get depressed when it’s gloomy and cranky when it gets too sunny.. So I’m not the only one huh?? lol
Yay to letting weathers affect our moods!! =)
Oh shoot! It’s distorted!
girrrl, i’m feelin’ ya on the S.A.D. my shrink says i have a mild form of S.A.D. because mine is mostly with light, rather than the weather. as long as i have a lot of light around me (sunshine or artificial), i am pretty happy. darkness, fog, smog, etc., always depresses me.
about being a magazine writer; why don’t you treat your blog the way you would write articles for a magazine??
i have always, always, always wanted to be a media journalist with NPR doing human interest stories.
one other suggestion: try “not” to write for an “audience.” i’ve found that when i “care” about what people think/say about me, i’m not as “open” or as “honest” or unbiased (is that a word?) as i should be.
good luck with the blogging!! and spring and summer are just around the corner…!!!
awww honey bunches we’re here for you…i think that blogging is definitely a form of release…a mini family who doesn’t criticize and make you feel like you’re not good enough…like G said, spring and summer are on their way, so keep your head up
i’d say thanks for writing!
your entries are always interesting and well-expressed. i hope you’ll feel better now that winter’s almost over 
i’d say thanks for writing!
your entries are always interesting and well-expressed. i hope you’ll feel better now that winter’s almost over 
I’ve actually been wanting to blog for a while (to procrastinate from studying and doing other important things in my life) and every time I read your blog reminds me that I should.
You are definitely funny and your blog makes me laugh. It’s hard to find a make-up blog that does that!
Keep up the great work!
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It doesn't look anything like a sun but the amateurish drawing might make you giggle and take you off SAD even for a little while. Spring,please do hurry. Love your art by the way. I used to have a DeviantArt account but I deleted it 'coz “artists” in my area were too snooty for my taste.